Tuesday, August 14, 2012 11:18 pm

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Sunday, August 12, 2012 5:05 pm

expectations

listen, ♥The one and only reason why I dread helping people, is because they'll expect you to help them repeatedly.

My Mum's exactly the case. By helping her bathe Marcus, it seems like its become my duty to bathe him week in and out. And yes, I dread bathing Marcus because I always itch at the end of the day. And is that my fault?!

I'm not being selfish here and I'm not saying that spending more time in church when it's family day, spending more time in church than at home is of any wrong, but seriously?! You don't come into my room and demand "Girl, why never help Daddy bathe Marcus?!" and walk off as though I owe you a living when I say I'm tired.

Why?! Am I not entitled to be tired or did I offend you the day before by saying I don't wanna be a counsellor?! I don't want my life to be dictated just because I'm spending more money to study in a school that I almost couldn't enter because of hesitation. I wanna have my own say in my life. And if that has angered you, I'm sorry. But you could have told me then and there that you weren't happy and we could talk things out.

I hate expectations and I hate it when people have expectations of me. I'm not smart, pretty or filial, I know that for a fact. I'm not the least bit perfect but I'm trying my best. I admit that I'm buying time every now and then and am escaping from what reality is drawing me close to. But that doesn't mean that I have demeaned myself.

I'm trying to be the best that I can bring forth, but I need time. To prove myself and my worth.

Expectations kill, stop expecting cause it's suffocating me.

Wednesday, August 08, 2012 10:48 pm

flustered

listen, ♥Today, I realise how much I really miss my colleagues. :(

I wish I had more time with them, I wish I got closer earlier, I wish we'll still be able to hang out like before. :(

Life's one hell of a joke. Orientation in 2 weeks, I'm freaking out right about NOW! :(

I'm scared. What if I cannot get along with the crowd? What if I'm just this unfriendly?

This is killing me so bad.